My Jimmy,
Happy New Year, my love.
Almost three weeks have passed since we really spoke. I miss your voice and the little conversations that made an ordinary day feel special. I hope you are doing well.
I imagined this evening for us. Different clothes, beautiful lights, a quiet moment together. But behind all of it is something much simpler: I care about you, and I wish I could tell you that in person.
If my words or actions hurt you, I am sorry. I know a beautiful surprise cannot make that hurt disappear. I want to listen to your experience, understand it and take responsibility for my part.
My hope is that we can face difficult moments with kindness. That we can speak honestly, care for each other and never make each other feel alone in the middle of something hard.
I can only make promises for myself. I will try to listen more carefully, speak more gently and respect the time and space you need.
I love you, Jimmy. If you ever feel ready to talk, I would love to hear from you. You do not need to reply today.
For now, my New Year wish is for your peace, your happiness and every beautiful thing you deserve. And if a new beginning feels right for both of us, I hope we find it with a little more understanding.
Shubham